Is it me or was January an extremely long month? It feels like we’re already halfway through 2019. Then again, my mind is so focused on my graduation and becoming a doctor that I’m practically already in May. At any rate, a new month is always a good time to revisit our year-long goals, and also make more specific ones for the month itself. If you feel like you carried some things into the new year that you should have left in 2018, now is a good time to reset and refocus. And you’re definitely not alone. To be completely transparent, I’ve looked at my new years resolutions maybe once since I wrote them down. Granted, I have them pretty much memorized so I don’t feel like I need to. I think the worst thing we can do is consider ourselves failures pre-maturely. Even if you completely bombed January, there’s still 11 months left in the year! Give yourself another chance.
Also, accomplishing our goals isn’t just black and white or hot and cold. Some of us are lukewarm with our goals and this month we need to heat things up. The most common goals we set are in the categories of “get closer to God,” “workout consistently,” “be more intentional in relationships,” etc. While you may not be completely sucking at those goals, you could probably be putting more effort into them. So, this month challenge yourself to put things into high gear. One practical way to do this is to set very specific goals one week at a time in a to-do list format. Things like “Call parents/friend” “run one mile” “read devotional” “do something creative/fun” “organize shoes” etc. Because these are all the smaller things that lead you to accomplishing your bigger goals. Plus, they are smaller bites to chew compared to “run a 10k” or “clean my apartment Marie Kondo style.”
If you’re killing your goals this year, more power to you! Keep crushing it. If you started the year on the struggle bus, just reset! Don’t give up just yet. And if you’re just floating along and doing OK, take things to the next level! We got this.
As for me, I’m halfway through my Ambulatory Medicine rotation. It’s been so far, so good. I’ve been struggling with this overwhelming sense of apathy on a daily basis. More and more, I have to tell myself to care–about my appearance, about being on time, about the number of patients I see, about the evaluations I’m going to get. My default mood is slowly becoming apathetic. I’m trying to resist it, but for some reason it just has this grip on me. I wouldn’t say that I’m burnt out or anything, I just feel like my brain is already living in April/May and I’m just ready to be done. I still get joy from seeing the patients, but outside of that I really don’t want to spend any more time than necessary inside the hospital. Basically, I’m just counting down the days y’all! I’m ready to be D O N E. It’s all good though, we’re almost there! I really need to start caring about this shelf exam in a couple weeks, still haven’t started studying. That’s on my list of goals for the week. Wish me luck!
All the best,