Last week, four days ago to be exact, was the deadline for the submission of our rank order list to the NRMP (National Residency Match Program). At this point, there is officially nothing else we as applicants can do but wait until match week. It’s an interesting feeling for me though because for the past 3.5 years, I’ve been doing everything I can to be the best student I could be. I’ve worked hard in the classroom, led organizations and volunteered in the community, studied my butt off for STEP1/2, plastered on my best smile on for my clinical rotations, etc. (Not that I did all these things for my application, but let’s just say I made sure to update my CV regularly). I’ve had weekly quizzes throughout my first and second years and ~monthly exams up until my fourth year. It’s been a whirlwind constantly being on my P’s and Q’s, constantly being evaluated and measured against my peers. So now that I’ve reached this point of no longer feeling like I live in a pressure cooker, it’s honestly kind of weird. It’s a welcomed weird feeling don’t get me wrong, but not what I’m accustomed to.
I’m actually just seeming to get my frame of mind back. If you remember in an earlier post I talked about this extreme apathy I was feeling toward school because none of my grades technically mattered anymore. I basically fell to the other end of the “caring” spectrum from how I treated my first, second, and third year. Now I’m much better. I’m on my last rotation in the ICU (intensive care unit) and I’m actually engaged in the work I’m doing and learning quite a bit. The learning has been so effortless because I don’t feel that pressure that I’m going to be tested on the information. I just learn according to my patients’ conditions, which is a way more natural way to absorb the knowledge.
I’ve come a long way! Everyone who is graduating this year has. I’m so incredibly proud of myself and I know I deserve this degree. It feels amazing to finally sit back and watch everything unfold. Creating my rank list was harder than I imagined it would be. I thought that I was going to have this big ah-ha moment along the interview trail that would settle it for me. But I got good vibes from many places and had to really sit with myself and figure out what was best for me. The biggest things I was considering in the end were location and program prestige. After a lot of thought and a couple of second-looks later, I feel confident in my ranking decisions! I’m super excited to see how things play out and I’m confident that I will match at the program that God has planned for my training. Three more weeks!
What a journey it has been; I can’t believe it’s coming to an end. Time to soak up this time of blissful freedom! Because I’ll never get it again..
Anywho, let me finish getting ready for this week ahead. Happy Sunday! I hope you have a wonderful week!