Put together some snippets from my NOLA girls trip with my college girlfriends! We’re here until Tuesday. I’m not used to vlogging though so I’m only posting a day and a half of activities. Enjoy!!
Put together some snippets from my NOLA girls trip with my college girlfriends! We’re here until Tuesday. I’m not used to vlogging though so I’m only posting a day and a half of activities. Enjoy!!
This post will be super short because 1. I need to study; my family med shelf exam is this Thursday 2. I’m tired 3. I honestly forgot that I was supposed to post something today (I’m doing so well with my consistency, trying to keep the momentum.). I have absolutely loved my patient experiences on my family medicine rotation. But the academic side–studying for this Shelf Exam–BLOWS. This field is too broad for me to know everything these people want to ask me! Not going to lie, things are looking pretty bleak.. and I’m usually a very positive person! I just feel so unprepared and it’s a sucky feeling because it’s not like I even have time to prepare more since I still have to go to work! *sigh* I’m venting but I’m just soooo over this. I’ve even been having eye twitches (which I learned were called blepharospasms) for the past few days because of all my stress and fatigue.
BUT I’m going to NOLA with some girlfriends next weekend for a much needed girls trip, so that’s pretty much all that’s pulling me through right now. It’s always good to plan something for yourself after a stretch of time that you know is going to be stressful. Even like a massage or a pedicure, or a whole trip like I’m doing. Just something to look forward to so there’s light to pull you out of the dark tunnel. So I’m very excited for that!
Well, back to studying I go! Hopefully I can lift my spirits up in the next couple of days so I can feel more like myself again. I’m not really used to feeling like this. Wish me luck! I hope everyone has a blessed week!
I spent this weekend in Miami visiting my boyfriend. But the journey getting there was full of L’s (losses)! I felt like I just couldn’t catch a break. After a series of unfortunate events, I missed my original flight and spent the next few hours trecking all over the airport trying to find another flight out. My airline didn’t have any other flights for the night so I was checking with other airlines. I’ve never missed a flight before so I felt like such a failure, like really irresponsible. And of course I’m thinking about study time lost while I’m getting my cardio in for the day/week. After many rejections and more money spent I finally reached my destination 6 hours later. I will never miss another flight in my life I’ll tell you that much.
And THEN on the way back, nobody told me that if you don’t fly on your airline out, they don’t save your return flight. So when I got to the airport for my return flight at 9am, I found that out the hard way. So I had to get yet another flight, but they still put me on standby for that flight. I was one person away from making standby -_-. Thankfully, Leslie hadn’t left the airport yet (he was taking a nap) and was able to pick me back up with no issue. Ended up leaving on a 5pm flight. I enjoyed the extra time but since I was now eating into my Sunday work day, I had to spend much of it studying. So, this weekend ended up being a heck of a lot more expensive than planned, but still worth every penny.
I took a lesson from it all though, which is why I decided to write about it instead of suppress my misfortune. You simply cannot plan everything out to the T, that’s not how life works. And when things don’t go as planned, it’s all about your attitude and how you respond that makes the difference. At first I was so frustrated and teary-eyed but I had to pull myself together and remind myself that I couldn’t change my circumstances; I just had to keep it moving with the current situation. Dwelling on the past would do nothing for me. I tried as best I could to keep my thoughts positive (emphasis on try). When you’re already in a tough spot, negativity will only add fuel to the flames that are consuming you. I’ve learned these lessons before, but I was definitely reminded of them this weekend.
Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand. -Proverbs
Praise God for journey mercies though because I made it back in town safely. I’m 10 days out from my shelf exam for Family Medicine and currently not feeling very comfortable with the material, so please extend your prayers to me and my brain!
Have a wonderful week!
In keeping with the spirit, I wanted to do a post in thanksgiving for the many blessings I’ve been granted. I’m thankful for…
Through thick and thin, I have been surrounded by the most amazing support system. There to lift me up, whether it seems like I need it or not (med students are masters of making everything seem like it’s OK). Keeping me laughing and distracted, but focused and motivated at the same time. I imagine myself in a black hole without them. Coming into medical school, I had my “day ones” plus other wonderful friends not pictured. Didn’t think I’d be able to make friends like I had in college. But, when I came to medical school God gave me another amazing group of friends to really go through the trenches with. So I’m thankful, because this journey wouldn’t be possible if I were doing it alone.
So much to be thankful for because we have a new addition! My niece Kelechi (translation: thank God) was born a month ago. She’s the most beautiful and healthy baby I’ve ever seen and my heart pours out every time I see her. I praise God for a healthy pregnancy and delivery for my sister. My parents and family are just overjoyed. Such a tiny human can make such an impact on all of us. And now everyone’s shifted their focus away from me so I can live my life in temporary peace. Although I still get the occasional “now it’s your turn!” I just smile and nod haha.
I’m thankful for my boyfriend who I just celebrated one year with (whoo!). He’s been holding me down for a while now and somehow is managing to deal with my crazy lifestyle and what some might call a rigid personality at times lol. It’s hard enough to date a medical student, and even harder to do it from another state. But he’s shown me an undeserving amount of patience and understanding that makes the distance worth it. He’s also my source of all things happening outside of the medical world, so I’m thankful for that plug when I don’t have time to keep up.
How many people get to wake up in the morning and be excited for the day ahead? Third year has really reaffirmed my purpose as a healer in the world. So each day I walk in my purpose, and I’m thankful for that because many others my age and older have yet to discover that for themselves. I have really long days and I wish I could catch a break and I didn’t have to study and work at the same time, and sometimes I just wish it would hurry up and end already.. but I’m doing what I was created to do.
I thankful for the courage to I had to step out of my comfort zone and start this blog! It’s been an amazing way for me to enhance my presence on social media in the most positive of ways. As I’ve grown more in the blogger world, I realize how much representation is lacking in the black community. So I hope to keep things going and stay consistent, with the idea that I’ll inspire the younger generation to pursue professional health careers, and inspire other current minority health professionals to use their voices in social media too.
That’s just a few of the many things I’m thankful for. I hope everyone enjoyed their Thanksgiving Day!
What are you thankful for this year??
I’m two weeks into my family medicine rotation (as the title suggests) and I’ve been
loving it so far! I work in a rural area in Sough Carolina about 30 mins from my apartment in Augusta. Now that I’ve gotten used to driving through back roads, I actually enjoy the commute. I drive with the sunrise and sunset every day. I have to report at 7:15 and I’m usually off by 5:15. So 10 hour days–could be worse. Every morning we round on patients in the hospital then we go to the clinic next door to see patients for the rest of the day. I work with 2 different physicians–one who’s been there for like 40 years and the other who’s been there 12. So they are very well known and respected in the community and have had students rotating there since forever. The patients are always telling me hilarious stories and encouraging me on my journey. Especially the minority patients who emphasize how much it matters for them to see people of color in this profession.
Family med is currently the specialty I want to go into, so I was pretty much hoping that I’d confirm that with this rotation, which is definitely happening! But, I have to keep in mind that I’m getting a very long term, idealistic view of what family medicine can be. My patients practically think my older preceptor walks on water so they do everything he says. Both of the physicians have developed such trusting relationships with their patients, so I’m just seeing the fruit of all of their labor. I love it though, it’s all about connecting dots and maintaining patients’ health; discovering ways you can improve their quality of life; knowing your limits and when to refer patients out; putting the pieces together when patients are seeing 5 different specialists; catching up on life in 3-6 mo intervals. It’s definitely not easy work, but I feel very fulfilled doing it.
I was worried that I might end up liking kids better than adults, and that didn’t happen because my conversations with adults were so rich that I didn’t want to let that go. It’s a very different bond you have between an adult patient and a peds patient, and I value them both. Plus, kids are frustrating! They won’t just sit down and listen or let me do my physical exam. And they just cough and sneeze as if they own the place. It’s honestly annoying sometimes, and gross. So mixing it up with adults who have sense really makes the day so much better.
Studying is weird. I don’t really feel like I’m making much headway to be honest. I don’t have the direction like I had for my other rotations. It’s just too broad. I study and do questions, but for now I don’t really know if I’m on the right track. I’ll find out with time. Hopefully I’ll still have time to straighten up by then!
I’m excited to go to work though, which is an awesome feeling.
I can’t waitto see my family and college friends again and enjoy my Thanksgiving “break” (Thursday and Friday–rubbish) with them. I pray everyone has a beautiful time this week surrounded by loved ones. Have a wonderful week! -TBA
We play a small but mighty role in the lives of our patients!
It can be pretty hard sometimes to find your place as a member of the “team” while you’re on your rotations. Speaking from experience, it’s hard to feel like I’m making much of a difference. After feeling good about the patient encounter and presenting everything to the attending (including the correct diagnosis for the patient), they come in and ask all the same questions and do all the same physical exam! Of course I understand why, but I can’t help but feel a little undermined at times. If you’re in a big hospital on a team with interns and residents then you might feel even more useless, because the students in training do all of the real work. I remember feeling lost in the shadows my time on a hospitalist team. Technically I was following my own patients and would present on them, but after rounds I was pretty out of the loop, unless I forced myself into it (and I didn’t want to be that girl). So it can be pretty frustrating. But rest assured, there are ways that you can impact your patients unlike any other person, as well as make a huge difference for your care team.
We’re eager and fresh in this new environment. We haven’t been jaded by the system and we only want to do the best by our patients. Our hearts tug when we hear bad news; we give people the benefit of the doubt; we believe it when they say they’re taking their medicine. This is such a meaningful thing that patients actually notice! There’s a difference in the way a medical student talks to them versus an attending. We show them the compassion, care, and empathy that they truly need and sometimes don’t get. There are times we can do more for them than all of the medications and tests that the residents are ordering. We have the time to sit with them and get to know them more personally. This especially goes if you don’t have to write notes after your patient encounter. More practically, there are many things you can do to be a rockstar team member: print rounding reports, gather new data on patients, do extra research on topics you or the residents may be pimped on, etc.
I’ll always remember on my OB/GYN rotation, there was a patient whose child had to be transported to another hospital while she had to stay to recover. It was so hard for her to be separated from her child. I came in during pre-rounds and was a soundboard for her to express her feelings. I told her that she was going to be a wonderful mom and that the time would soon come for her to be reunited with her child. I stopped in again later in the day, and as she was being discharged, she thanked me so much for being her rock as she waited for the go-ahead to leave the hospital. And she gave me the biggest hug. She said people just came in and out of her room all day and no one cared what she was going through. In that moment I felt like I did more for her than any of the nurses or even my attending–who really just signed her discharge papers.
So just remember that even though you might not have access to the computer record to look up patient info, or you might be the third person to take the same patient history, you really can make all the difference in a patient’s life. Our worth as medical students is unfortunately defined by how good our oral presentations and differential diagnoses are. But our worth as physicians is really in the connections we make with patients and in the rapport we build with them. That’s what makes all the difference. While learning to be good clinicians, we are also learning to be good doctors.
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How I made the most of my recent free time, and tips for you to do the same!
The past several weeks have been very chill for me. I had four weeks of a very non-demanding elective, then two weeks of a palliative care rotation, which was also pretty light. So I had a lot of free time on my hands. In the beginning, all I wanted to do was be a bum–which felt great. But of course, with my personality, that did not last long. I found different things to productively occupy my time. So as I go on, keep in mind that these are suggestions for bulk free time, and not when you only have a few hours here and there.
Declutter your whole life
I did a major clean out of my closet–basically a purge. I got rid of all of the clothes and shoes I no longer wore. I also finally threw out stuff I had been hoarding in there for the longest (ex. leftover supplies from my sister’s bridal shower almost 2 years ago). Before, I could only take 2 steps in my closet before being swallowed up, and now I can see the wall all the way to the back! Two full bags of trash and two full suitcases of clothes/shoes/purses later…
Discover fun things to do with your hair (to my naturalistas)
I usually have my hair in protective styles (wigs, braids, twists, etc.), but over these past 6 weeks, I’ve been wearing my natural hair out. I’ve washed it every weekend and styled it all kind of fun ways. YouTube and I became even more besties than we already were! It’s really boosted my confidence in wearing it out too. Going into a new [real] rotation, I’m not sure if I can keep up with all the maintenance honestly because ya girl needs to study…we’ll see!
For me this was applied to my blog. I wanted to bulk up content so that I could stay consistent with my Sunday releases even when I got busy again. This was actually hard though, because I was forcing myself to write with no real inspiration. So I admittedly didn’t get too far with that. I also applied this to school, as I started minimally preparing for my Family Medicine rotation this past week. It’s apparently the hardest Shelf, and the specialty I’m interested in pursuing, so I just want to do well.
Spark up a new/old habit
I used to run pretty consistently before STEP1 and third year started. So in this time I knew I definitely wanted to get back to that. Not training for anything, never really had any pacing goals. It just helps me so much with my mental stamina. Embracing the pain and soreness, convincing myself that I’m not tired-that I still have more to give, finding a good pace and staying in it–all things I do with school. I set a goal to run 50 miles in October and I’m so proud that I met that goal!
I randomly decided that I was going to make something for my niece, since everyone was buying my sister pretty much everything humanly possible. Just wanted to be different. So I used YouTube to teach me how to make headbands for infants. I spent a day and half on that project, because I made a matching one for me too!
Make the most of your free time the next time you have it! Add other suggestions in the comments. Have a wonderful week! -TBA
A week of palliative care has shown me a lot
I’ve spent a week on my palliative care rotation and boy has it been heavy. Palliative care is focused on quality of life and relief of symptoms, especially towards the end of life. I’m assigned to a nursing home, so not only am I exposed to end of life issues, but I’ve been able to learn about geriatric/elder patient care in general. I did a puzzle with a 94 year-old in occupational therapy and I saw a patient around the same age in her last days of life. It’s been quite the ride.
Earlier in the week I was part of a very delicate conversation concerning one of our patients nearing the end of life. It was a team meeting with the patient’s son and grandson. Our medical director asked questions like “how do you envision a good death for the patient?” and “what are your goals for the end of life?” They were trying to think about what the patient would want, as he could no longer speak for himself. Such a delicate time for the family.
Dealing so much with death and end of life has actually made me reflect a lot on life and how we all want to life full lives. And even at old age, after living a full life, death can still come suddenly to a family. There’s never really any way to prepare for that conversation. But it’s a reminder to live each day to the fullest and take advantage of all the ways you can make a difference in people’s lives. To pursue your passions and not put a hold on your goals for life. Because at the end, we aren’t all going to be blessed with the opportunity to plan out how we or our loved ones will leave the world.
As a future physician it’s nerve-racking to think that I’ll have to have these kind of conversations with patients and their families as soon as my first year out of school. So I’m happy to be getting the small exposure I am now so that maybe when I’m more important I’ll be able to guide a family through such a vulnerable time as this.
One more week of palliative care, then Family Medicine. Stay tuned. I’m excited for the week ahead!
Time management is one of the most difficult things for many people to master, especially the professional student. Some people have always had a knack for it, and others have always felt like there just aren’t enough hours in the day. I come at this from the student perspective (professional and pre-professional), but most of the advice I have will actually be applicable to people in the “real world” too. I consider myself credible on this topic after successfully juggling school, extracurriculars, social life, etc. for many years now. I will cover just the basics of time management, just enough for you to get started on your journey to reclaiming your time!
In order for you to master your time you need to first recognize what you’re doing with your time. What are the fixed times in your day (classes, work, etc.) and what are you doing with all of the other hours in the day that aren’t fixed? This can be done mentally or through hour-by-hour tracking. You might notice that a chunk of your day is spent napping or you spend way too much time between getting home from school, showering, and dinner before you’re ready to be productive again. Small revelations can make a big difference in your management.
The next step is to figure out how you want to manage your time. This step also takes a little self awareness because there are so many ways to go about this & you want to choose one that best for you. Planners are so cute and chic and make your flat lays pop, but if you’re never going to actually write in it, what’s the point? If you want to go electronic, you need to make sure you choose something that syncs between your phone and computer. In other words, don’t use iCal on your Mac when you have an Android phone–try google calendar instead. If you are a ToDo list person, I don’t believe you can ever truly master time management, because there’s nothing about them that actually manages your time, they just help you stay organized. They are a great add on to an already established schedule. Personally–well first of all I’m a micromanager of my time, so a lot of what I do is unnecessary for the average person. I use iCal which syncs in real-time between my phone and laptop. I’m able to color coordinate (unnecessary) categories such as personal, academic, specific student orgs, etc. I can usually schedule out about a week in advance, but sometimes I end up scheduling out the day on the morning of–it be like that sometimes. I schedule free time and breaks also, which I advise so you be sure you have little blips of time for yourself.
So, once you’ve chosen your method, the final, but most important thing, is to know what you have to get done, and how much time it will take you to get done. One of the biggest mistakes that people make is being overambitious thinking they can finish something in less time than reality. I’ve learned it’s always better to overestimate how much time something will take because it takes the edge off and if you finish sooner, then great! Then you can take a break or keep it pushing and go to bed earlier. For example, if you have a one hour block between class and a meeting, you will serve yourself better by reviewing old material or sending some emails than trying to tackle a new lecture you got that day. You’ll spend so much brain power and just when you’re starting to flow, your times up. So save hard core studying for times when you can dedicate at least 2 hours or time.
After that, all you need to do is actually figure out when to get things done—when in the day and when in the week. With the first step (recognizing what you’re doing with your time), you would have realized which days are heavier on the extracurriculars and have more awkward gaps of time, and which days can be real hard core study days. In order to most efficiently map out a day, you need to determine when you are most productive. Are you a morning person (like me) and can wake up at 5:30am to study before classes? Or do you get your best work done between 9 and 11pm. You’d want to schedule your main studying during your peak productivity hours, and your busy work/errands/exercise/etc. for your off-peak hours. How much sleep do you need a night to be alert all through the day (no nap included)? Sleeping more and napping less can make a big difference as well. And if you hold leadership and have a million extra tasks you need to get done, take advantage of bursts of time that might not even feel “free” like waiting for a friend or breaks in class or that 5 mins before class really starts.
These are some of the things that have helped me improve my time management. If you’d like to know more about his I schedule my days specifically, please contact me. I hope that these tips help you get a better grip on your days. Or if you know someone who struggles with this, pass this post along to them! Have a great week!
What do you do when you’re ready to throw in the towel?
It doesn’t take much time after starting school that all the excitement gets sucked out of everything and you’re just fighting to stay afloat. That’s not a very optimistic statement to make, but there’s some truth in it, especially in medical school. There are random moments when you’re reminded of why you’re putting yourself through such suffering, but they seem few and far in between, until you get to the clinical years. For the first two years of med school, lots of people use the swimming analogy: everyone is just trying to stay afloat. There’s times when you’ve got your stride and you’re cruising, and at some points (most points) you’re barely making it, swamped by the waves that keep coming and coming…and coming. It takes so much effort to stay afloat, eventually your body gets tired, and you want to say screw it. But you can’t. Because you’re supposed to get a couple letters behind your name soon, and you really want those letters.
So what do you do? Here’s some tips from my experience on how to keep fighting the good fight.
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